“Don’t stop until you’re satisfied. You want an explanation? Ask. You want to be successful? Work. Don’t settle for results you don’t want. Don’t stop until you’re satisfied.”—(the best advice a teacher has ever given me)
“You opened those big brown eyes
that I love so much
and pursed those lips that
make me weak at the knees
and hissed through those straight
white teeth that you didn’t love me anymore.
You hate my hands now
because they are dry
and cracked from holding you
throughout the night.
You hate my nails
because they are bitten down
to the bone
from worrying about you.
You hate my fingers because
they are bloodied from
stitching up your wounds
and picking up your tattered pieces
that were left on the floor.
But I will not be the cast
for your broken bone
I will not be your remedy
or your medication
I do not want to kiss mouths
that taste like whiskey
I do not want to look into eyes
that haven’t seen the ocean during a storm
I do not want to feel skin
that has not felt the first breath of spring.
Love is more than what I have done for you
I’m not sorry about my hands
I’m not sorry
I’m not sorry
I’m not sorry”—Kimberly Siehl | Love is more than what I have done for you (via hangingwallflower)
There’s not much I can say, I never really knew your mom anyway And now she’s crying in the bathroom I’m standing on the back porch for support And she’s begging you not to cut your hair 'Cause curly hair don't look good short
“You planted a kiss on
but not my mouth
even though I vehemently refused
telling you I wanted your mouth on mine
because to me
that was intimacy
but you patted my head and smirked
and said, “I want my lips to be close to your heart.”
I would smile and tell my friends
how sweet it was
but yell into my pillow at night
because I knew that
my mouth was dripping with promises
and filled with words and stories.
My collarbone is hollow
and worn out from your teeth
and dry from your saliva.
My mouth is my heart
because it can
I want you to kiss my ferocity
and tongue the fire in my gums
to taste my weaknesses
as well as my strengths
because a hollow bone will never
be filled with wonderment
and will never feel like home.”—Kimberly Siehl | Kiss my mouth not my hollowness (via hangingwallflower)
“Nineteen things I’ve learned before I turned nineteen.
1. Always carry $5 and a lighter with you (even if you don’t smoke).
2. Ask every person you meet how their day is going. Genuinely ask with the soul intention of learning how their day is. Ask the coffee shop employee. Ask the person next to you in line at Walmart. Ask your distant friend. Ask everyone.
3. Take many photos of yourself. Take photos of yourself when you’re happy. Take photos of yourself when you’re sad. Take photos of yourself because there are millions of trees in the world, and we all look at the same sky, but there is only one of you.
4. Stay in contact with your parents. Try not to hate them. They are the reason you have the ability to feel anything at all. Try not to hate your parents.
5. Opening your skin will not set your demons free. Open your heart. Open your mind. Open your hands.
6. Nobody knows anybody completely. That’s okay.
7. Be gentle, but be aggressive. Take a stand. Nobody hears your voice if you stay silent.
8. Respect everybody. We are all humans trying to survive. We all deserve respect.
9. Wearing black will ALWAYS make you feel better about yourself.
10. Always give tips, whether it be a couple extra dollars or a piece of mind. You never know how much you could be helping someone.
11. Change is the only thing consistent in life. Do not allow that bother you. Embrace chance and move with life, whichever direction it chooses to take you.
12. Smile often. Smile at strangers. Smile at your friends. Smile when nobody is looking and you’re alone in your bedroom. Smile when somebody is rambling to you.
13. Body image means nothing. Your body is merely just a seatbelt in the car. Your body is here to protect you. You choose the direction you go, and your body will not hold you back. Only you can hold yourself back.
14. Don’t hold grudges. Don’t allow yourself to hate anybody. Forgive them. Learn to love them for the person you never got to see them to be. Believe that a beautiful human exists in that person. Wish them well.
15. Drink orange juice. Lots of it.
16. Don’t allow the opinions of others to choose your destiny. We are all simply trying to live our own life.
17. Sing all the time. Sing off key. Sing in a silly voice. Sing like you’re on stage. Sing no matter who is around. Singing is breathing for the soul. Sing.
18. Take time to think. Write your feelings down. Write letters to the people you love. Texting is overrated and not as heartfelt as a nice handwritten letter.
19. Live for yourself. Breathe for yourself. Do everything in your life for nobody but you. This is your life. This is it.”—Katey Chrest (via pythons)
“When she was unhappy she would lock herself in the bedroom until she felt better. ‘It’s none of your business,’ she told him. ‘I don’t want anybody to see me when I’m like that. He used to call her a clam. ‘Open up,’ he hammered on all the locked doors of their life together, basement first, then maisonette, then mansion. ‘I love you, let me in.’ He needed her so badly, to reassure himself of his own existence, that he never comprehended the desperation in her dazzling, permanent smile, the terror in the brightness with which she faced the world, or the reasons why she hid when she couldn’t manage to beam.”—Salman Rushdie, “The Satanic Verses” (via lifeinpoetry)